“Create A YouTube Channel” I said

For years, I have loved watching other people create funny, cute, inspiring videos and upload them to YouTube. This year, one of my resolutions was to “Create a YouTube Channel”. Keep in mind I’ve said this for years, but I’ve always been scared of what people would say, or I would give up because I didn’t know what to film. I’ve always wanted to be on the screen. So finally, I created my channel. I created it around January 8th, and about two months later, I have around 250 subscribers. HELL YEAAAHHHHHH. Okay, obviously not the highest number you’ve ever seen a youtuber have, but it’s something! I hope you guys want to join me on my YouTube experience by watching my videos and subscribing!

My YouTube Channel

 

Also, I suggest that if there is anything you’ve been wanting to do for a long time but have not gotten around to do it, DO IT. Stop pushing it away and start pulling it closer to you. It’ll just be the beginning and everything will only rise from here on out!

Xoxo, Courtney Leigh

Four Months.

I know it has been four months, but I still look for you everywhere I go. Sometimes I feel like we could just pick up where we had left, right before we fought. We were bestfriends, but I guess if we were truly bestfriends, nothing would get in between us. So I guess we weren’t bestfriends, but it sure felt real. It felt like a breakup with a boyfriend, but worse because from my past experience,  I truly believe bestfriends are supposed to stick around for the rest of your life. One time I thought I saw you. My heart raced, I couldn’t think straight, and I began to panic. That’s when I realized it still hurts my heart. From the minute we met, I instantly fell in love with our friendship. You made me feel confident, happy, and safe with you. I wish I could say I still felt the same. It’s been four months since we last texted. It’s been four months since I’ve seen your smile. Late at night, I tend to think about our lost friendship. It’s been four months, and I still miss you. I know it could never be the same with us. I know that if we ever see each other in person again, we will probably look the other way. I know that we have become strangers with memories I will cherish for the rest of my life. Thanks for a great summer and thanks for the year of friendship, stranger. If only you knew I was thinking of you.

The Ultimate Checklist For Knowing If Your Friend Could Be More

It doesn’t matter if you guys are dating or not; This checklist will let you know if you’ve found someone that could possibly be THE ONE.

Everyone dreams of having the perfect guy/girl to eventually share their life with. So, if you’re already “sorta” sharing your life with a good friend, and want to know if he or she could possibly be more then just your good friend, here’s an ultimate checklist to check.

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You feel like yourself around him & you feel like you can always say what you’re feeling and can be yourself and not worry about him running away.

You respect each other Respect goes a long way in relationships. You respect that they sometimes can’t hang out, or are hanging out with other people, and you feel comfortable with the fact that you aren’t always around each other. This is really healthy for a relationship.

Every time you see each other, you guys light up I seriously mean “light up”! If everything just becomes brighter, such as, your mood, day, surroundings, his smile, etc, everything’s just perfect. If he lights up the moment you enter the room, all is well in the world.

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Although you guys are just friends, it already seems like you guys are in a relationship This is the first sign that “maybe, just maybe” you two would make a super cute couple! If people are even asking you if you guys are dating now, why not make it official, am I right? Lol. I know you think I’m right on this (;

You listen to each other Even if you don’t have the same opinion on something, you aren’t afraid to speak your mind! Also, when you do speak your mind, he listens! Listening is a key in relationships and helps you two connect!

You guys want to see each other Although you don’t always have to be together, you guys want to see each other! You get excited when you two can hangout!

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You both are able to share personal things and accept each other for who you are Although he’s seen you at your best, he’s also able to see you at your worst. You guys feel safe and comfortable around each other!

He compliments you Both Verbally and non verbally. Sometimes you notice that he’s looking at you. Sometimes he’ll even compliment you and tell you you’re pretty, or you don’t need any makeup to look good. He could either be super shy about his feelings for you or more outgoing with them. If he ever says “Any guy would be lucky to have you” just be like “Well aren’t you lucky…” because obviously you guys are meant to be. He clearly thinks you’re a prize that he’s not good enough for, but you can boost his confidence if you choose him.

You both love each other as friends  If you guys are loving the friendship, the personalities, the face, the person, and you have chemistry, GO FOR IT NOW!! Think about if you guys already love each other as friends, how much more it could be if you just loved each other in general.

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If someone came to your mind while you read this, I want you to think about what your guys’ potential could be! Clearly this person is worth holding onto, so why not try to make your bestfriend your boyfriend too? Having a best friend is an amazing feeling, and if you could have a combination of a boyfriend and bestfriend, why not?

 

 

 

Many Firsts

In the past two weeks, I have experienced two very different types of celebrations. One of these events were to celebrate a union of a man and woman, and the other was the celebration of a life that once was and now was gone.

My First Wedding

I was so excited to go to a wedding. Being eighteen years old, you would think I had gone to a wedding before, but this was the first one I have ever attended. The moment I got there, I knew I would love it more then anything. And I did. There was so much love in one place, so many beautiful people expressing their feelings, and so much happiness filled the air. It felt as if I were in a movie itself. Going to this wedding made me excited for my own wedding in the far future.

After being to a wedding, you’d think all is right in the world. Seeing two beautiful people want to spend the rest of their life together because they loved each other could make everyone feel as though they were in love themselves.

All is well in the world, until it’s not.

My First Funeral

It truly didn’t hit me that my friend was gone forever until I walked into the building for the service. He was only nineteen years old, we were the class of 2016 together, and he was on his way to college. How am I supposed to react when someone texts me out of the blue and says “Hey, did you hear he died”? Of course I didn’t hear he died, because he couldn’t have! He is only nineteen! We go to church together!

How am I supposed to react when multiple people are texting me and saying “His death was an accident, he’s gone”. Shock. Disbelief. You don’t know how to react. Is this real? A week passes by and nothing. You continue to go to classes, see friends, and watch movies. Then you attend the service.

Yesterday, August 28th 2016, I attended my first funeral. Yesterday, everything became clear. Yesterday, I realized he was gone.

I believe it’s okay to grieve for the ones you’ve lost. It’s also okay to celebrate the time you had with them. You’ll wish you had more time with them, that you hugged them a little longer then you had, and you’ll wish they were sitting next to you right now. And that’s okay.

These two extremely different events made me realize that life is way to short. Always make sure you know you’re loved and the ones around you are loved. You never know how long you have on Earth, so you need to make your seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, and years count.

Don’t worry about the past and don’t worry about the future. Worry about the NOW.

Congratulations to the beautiful wedded husband and wife.

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Congratulations to God for getting a beautiful young man who has entered heaven. You’ll be missed.

 

 

Relatable Girl Posts

I’m 99% sure every girl can relate to atleast one of these. I relate to exactly ALL of them….

 

 

  1. When you like your crush and your crush likes you best friend 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 :)!!!!!
  2. Accidently ‘liking’ one of your crushes Instagram posts from 150 weeks ago 🙂 🙂 🙂 :).
  3. I wanna write “I miss you” on a rock and throw it at your face so you know how much it hurts to miss you :).
  4. That awkward moment you have to get over someone you never even dated 🙂 🙂 🙂 :).
  5. Hate being fat. Love eating food 🙂
  6. Getting a boyfriend in movies is a lot easier then in real life :).
  7. Your mom’s trying to call you by your name, and they call you all your siblings names first 🙂 🙂 :).
  8. When your parents don’t appreciate the hilarious kid they’ve been blessed with 🙂 🙂 🙂 :).
  9. When you’re trapped in the corner of your shower because the cold water is running :).
  10. My attitude being based on how someone treats me, and they don’t seem to understand that 🙂 🙂 :).
  11. That mini heart attack when your teacher calls your name and you weren’t even paying attention 🙂 🙂 :).
  12. When it’s so easy to text someone but so awkward to say in person :).
  13. Being too nice to people, and always getting hurt because of it 🙂 🙂 🙂
  14. When your friends make it very known that you like your crush 🙂 🙂 :).
  15. When my crush does something stupid but you think he’s still super cute doing it 🙂 :)!!
  16. When someone flirts with your crush 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂
  17. When you can’t find the wifi 🙂 🙂 🙂
  18. When I wake up in the morning and realize I have to go to school 🙂 🙂 🙂
  19. When you’re on your period 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂
  20. When someone posts an ugly picture of you and many people see 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂
  21. When you just want to hold his hand but he has his eyes on someone else 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂
  22. When you get to watch your crush play with someone elses hair 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂
  23. When you’re single 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂
  24. When you’re putting on makeup and get one eye perfect and screw up the other one 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂
  25. When you look bad in cute clothes and any clothes to be truthful 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂
  26. When you’re like “I’m short and you’re tall…. We’d be cute”, but he goes for the “shorter” and they’re even cuter 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂

 

Comment if I missed anything else!

XOXO, Courtney Leigh 🙂