“Create A YouTube Channel” I said

For years, I have loved watching other people create funny, cute, inspiring videos and upload them to YouTube. This year, one of my resolutions was to “Create a YouTube Channel”. Keep in mind I’ve said this for years, but I’ve always been scared of what people would say, or I would give up because I didn’t know what to film. I’ve always wanted to be on the screen. So finally, I created my channel. I created it around January 8th, and about two months later, I have around 250 subscribers. HELL YEAAAHHHHHH. Okay, obviously not the highest number you’ve ever seen a youtuber have, but it’s something! I hope you guys want to join me on my YouTube experience by watching my videos and subscribing!

My YouTube Channel

 

Also, I suggest that if there is anything you’ve been wanting to do for a long time but have not gotten around to do it, DO IT. Stop pushing it away and start pulling it closer to you. It’ll just be the beginning and everything will only rise from here on out!

Xoxo, Courtney Leigh

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Four Months.

I know it has been four months, but I still look for you everywhere I go. Sometimes I feel like we could just pick up where we had left, right before we fought. We were bestfriends, but I guess if we were truly bestfriends, nothing would get in between us. So I guess we weren’t bestfriends, but it sure felt real. It felt like a breakup with a boyfriend, but worse because from my past experience,  I truly believe bestfriends are supposed to stick around for the rest of your life. One time I thought I saw you. My heart raced, I couldn’t think straight, and I began to panic. That’s when I realized it still hurts my heart. From the minute we met, I instantly fell in love with our friendship. You made me feel confident, happy, and safe with you. I wish I could say I still felt the same. It’s been four months since we last texted. It’s been four months since I’ve seen your smile. Late at night, I tend to think about our lost friendship. It’s been four months, and I still miss you. I know it could never be the same with us. I know that if we ever see each other in person again, we will probably look the other way. I know that we have become strangers with memories I will cherish for the rest of my life. Thanks for a great summer and thanks for the year of friendship, stranger. If only you knew I was thinking of you.

The Ultimate Checklist For Knowing If Your Friend Could Be More

It doesn’t matter if you guys are dating or not; This checklist will let you know if you’ve found someone that could possibly be THE ONE.

Everyone dreams of having the perfect guy/girl to eventually share their life with. So, if you’re already “sorta” sharing your life with a good friend, and want to know if he or she could possibly be more then just your good friend, here’s an ultimate checklist to check.

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You feel like yourself around him & you feel like you can always say what you’re feeling and can be yourself and not worry about him running away.

You respect each other Respect goes a long way in relationships. You respect that they sometimes can’t hang out, or are hanging out with other people, and you feel comfortable with the fact that you aren’t always around each other. This is really healthy for a relationship.

Every time you see each other, you guys light up I seriously mean “light up”! If everything just becomes brighter, such as, your mood, day, surroundings, his smile, etc, everything’s just perfect. If he lights up the moment you enter the room, all is well in the world.

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Although you guys are just friends, it already seems like you guys are in a relationship This is the first sign that “maybe, just maybe” you two would make a super cute couple! If people are even asking you if you guys are dating now, why not make it official, am I right? Lol. I know you think I’m right on this (;

You listen to each other Even if you don’t have the same opinion on something, you aren’t afraid to speak your mind! Also, when you do speak your mind, he listens! Listening is a key in relationships and helps you two connect!

You guys want to see each other Although you don’t always have to be together, you guys want to see each other! You get excited when you two can hangout!

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You both are able to share personal things and accept each other for who you are Although he’s seen you at your best, he’s also able to see you at your worst. You guys feel safe and comfortable around each other!

He compliments you Both Verbally and non verbally. Sometimes you notice that he’s looking at you. Sometimes he’ll even compliment you and tell you you’re pretty, or you don’t need any makeup to look good. He could either be super shy about his feelings for you or more outgoing with them. If he ever says “Any guy would be lucky to have you” just be like “Well aren’t you lucky…” because obviously you guys are meant to be. He clearly thinks you’re a prize that he’s not good enough for, but you can boost his confidence if you choose him.

You both love each other as friends  If you guys are loving the friendship, the personalities, the face, the person, and you have chemistry, GO FOR IT NOW!! Think about if you guys already love each other as friends, how much more it could be if you just loved each other in general.

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If someone came to your mind while you read this, I want you to think about what your guys’ potential could be! Clearly this person is worth holding onto, so why not try to make your bestfriend your boyfriend too? Having a best friend is an amazing feeling, and if you could have a combination of a boyfriend and bestfriend, why not?

 

 

 

Many Firsts

In the past two weeks, I have experienced two very different types of celebrations. One of these events were to celebrate a union of a man and woman, and the other was the celebration of a life that once was and now was gone.

My First Wedding

I was so excited to go to a wedding. Being eighteen years old, you would think I had gone to a wedding before, but this was the first one I have ever attended. The moment I got there, I knew I would love it more then anything. And I did. There was so much love in one place, so many beautiful people expressing their feelings, and so much happiness filled the air. It felt as if I were in a movie itself. Going to this wedding made me excited for my own wedding in the far future.

After being to a wedding, you’d think all is right in the world. Seeing two beautiful people want to spend the rest of their life together because they loved each other could make everyone feel as though they were in love themselves.

All is well in the world, until it’s not.

My First Funeral

It truly didn’t hit me that my friend was gone forever until I walked into the building for the service. He was only nineteen years old, we were the class of 2016 together, and he was on his way to college. How am I supposed to react when someone texts me out of the blue and says “Hey, did you hear he died”? Of course I didn’t hear he died, because he couldn’t have! He is only nineteen! We go to church together!

How am I supposed to react when multiple people are texting me and saying “His death was an accident, he’s gone”. Shock. Disbelief. You don’t know how to react. Is this real? A week passes by and nothing. You continue to go to classes, see friends, and watch movies. Then you attend the service.

Yesterday, August 28th 2016, I attended my first funeral. Yesterday, everything became clear. Yesterday, I realized he was gone.

I believe it’s okay to grieve for the ones you’ve lost. It’s also okay to celebrate the time you had with them. You’ll wish you had more time with them, that you hugged them a little longer then you had, and you’ll wish they were sitting next to you right now. And that’s okay.

These two extremely different events made me realize that life is way to short. Always make sure you know you’re loved and the ones around you are loved. You never know how long you have on Earth, so you need to make your seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, and years count.

Don’t worry about the past and don’t worry about the future. Worry about the NOW.

Congratulations to the beautiful wedded husband and wife.

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Congratulations to God for getting a beautiful young man who has entered heaven. You’ll be missed.

 

 

Senior-itis

 

It all begins when you begin to walk. Your parents begin to question “what’s their next step”? They soon send us off to daycare, and before you know it, you’re in pre-school, next to kindergarten, and in a blink of an eye, you’re leaving to go to High school. Four years. Four years to make a name for yourself in your town.

Freshman year: You’re told that every year counts, make good grades, do all your homework. You listen, but you’re not listening because you’re looking at your surroundings, terrified of all the new faces staring back at you. “What did the teacher say? Do these girls like me? Do I fit in? Do the guys notice me”? You seem to be very shy, very quiet. Very intimidated by the pretty girls… That is Freshman Year

Sophomore year: You’re beginning to find the people you like to hangout with. You attend all the school sport games to support the cute guy players and your new friends who play. You think about joining some sports. You don’t try out for any. You make working out a priority, which is an amazing journey for you. You’re still very quiet, but you begin to break out of your shell. You branch out more, meet more people, discover who you like and dislike. You’re proud of yourself. You stop eating all the junk food. You go to sleepovers. You’re happier…. That is Sophomore Year.

Junior Year: You are happy. You smile so much more. You workout almost everyday, eat better (besides chocolate). You have found your friends, and are still making friends along the way! You love watching shows on Netflix. You begin to hear teachers talk about tests you have to take. You take the ACTs and SATs. You go on vacation with your closest friends for Spring Break. You spend all your weekends with your best friend since 2 years old…. That is your Junior year.

Senior Year: You made it. You’ve also flourished into a social butterfly. Everyone thinks your super sweet and funny and great. You’re happy. You’re so freaked out about applying to colleges. You visit UNCC and love the campus, but hate your moms warning about being away from home. She wants you to stay close to home. You are scared to leave highschool. You are scared of failure to be accepted into college. You are scared. You got your first real job as a cashier. You are making friends everywhere. You get super freaked out about if you and your bestfriend will go to the same school. You don’t want to lose her. You are only less then 9 weeks into your senior year…. This is your Senior year so far.

 

Life goes by quick. Live to the fullest. I’m scared of my future ahead, but I’m excited. I know everything is meant to be, and I will find my way. This was actually more about my experience in highschool, and what is going on right now. Thank you for reading ❤

XoXO, Courtney Leigh

In Need of Tips on Losing Weight

Beginning my last year of highschool, I have gained 10 pounds and I can’t seem to lose it! I’d lose 5, then gain back 5… Gain 1 then lose 4! Leave any tips you can! I also think I’m gonna try to blog about my fitness and health journey once I can get into it! Thanks.. I’m going to Disney at the end of this month and id love to have shed off some of these pounds before going 😦