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Advice to my Younger Self

So at the beginning of this new year, I decided I would take a leap in creativity and start up a YouTube account. Obviously I only have about 8 subscribers and maybe 3 likes on a video, but it can only go up from here! For my first video, I wanted to show people my thoughts. I’ve lost many people in my life that I thought would stay in my life forever. Looking back on my devastation of losing good friends, I wish I wasn’t as heartbroken and confused as I was. I believe all things happen for a reason, and I wanted to create a video that showed you guys what I see. I hope you enjoy my first video and hope that maybe you will subscribe to see what else I’m going to give to the world.

Xo, Courtney Leigh

The Ultimate Checklist For Knowing If Your Friend Could Be More

It doesn’t matter if you guys are dating or not; This checklist will let you know if you’ve found someone that could possibly be THE ONE.

Everyone dreams of having the perfect guy/girl to eventually share their life with. So, if you’re already “sorta” sharing your life with a good friend, and want to know if he or she could possibly be more then just your good friend, here’s an ultimate checklist to check.

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You feel like yourself around him & you feel like you can always say what you’re feeling and can be yourself and not worry about him running away.

You respect each other Respect goes a long way in relationships. You respect that they sometimes can’t hang out, or are hanging out with other people, and you feel comfortable with the fact that you aren’t always around each other. This is really healthy for a relationship.

Every time you see each other, you guys light up I seriously mean “light up”! If everything just becomes brighter, such as, your mood, day, surroundings, his smile, etc, everything’s just perfect. If he lights up the moment you enter the room, all is well in the world.

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Although you guys are just friends, it already seems like you guys are in a relationship This is the first sign that “maybe, just maybe” you two would make a super cute couple! If people are even asking you if you guys are dating now, why not make it official, am I right? Lol. I know you think I’m right on this (;

You listen to each other Even if you don’t have the same opinion on something, you aren’t afraid to speak your mind! Also, when you do speak your mind, he listens! Listening is a key in relationships and helps you two connect!

You guys want to see each other Although you don’t always have to be together, you guys want to see each other! You get excited when you two can hangout!

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You both are able to share personal things and accept each other for who you are Although he’s seen you at your best, he’s also able to see you at your worst. You guys feel safe and comfortable around each other!

He compliments you Both Verbally and non verbally. Sometimes you notice that he’s looking at you. Sometimes he’ll even compliment you and tell you you’re pretty, or you don’t need any makeup to look good. He could either be super shy about his feelings for you or more outgoing with them. If he ever says “Any guy would be lucky to have you” just be like “Well aren’t you lucky…” because obviously you guys are meant to be. He clearly thinks you’re a prize that he’s not good enough for, but you can boost his confidence if you choose him.

You both love each other as friends  If you guys are loving the friendship, the personalities, the face, the person, and you have chemistry, GO FOR IT NOW!! Think about if you guys already love each other as friends, how much more it could be if you just loved each other in general.

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If someone came to your mind while you read this, I want you to think about what your guys’ potential could be! Clearly this person is worth holding onto, so why not try to make your bestfriend your boyfriend too? Having a best friend is an amazing feeling, and if you could have a combination of a boyfriend and bestfriend, why not?

 

 

 

Many Firsts

In the past two weeks, I have experienced two very different types of celebrations. One of these events were to celebrate a union of a man and woman, and the other was the celebration of a life that once was and now was gone.

My First Wedding

I was so excited to go to a wedding. Being eighteen years old, you would think I had gone to a wedding before, but this was the first one I have ever attended. The moment I got there, I knew I would love it more then anything. And I did. There was so much love in one place, so many beautiful people expressing their feelings, and so much happiness filled the air. It felt as if I were in a movie itself. Going to this wedding made me excited for my own wedding in the far future.

After being to a wedding, you’d think all is right in the world. Seeing two beautiful people want to spend the rest of their life together because they loved each other could make everyone feel as though they were in love themselves.

All is well in the world, until it’s not.

My First Funeral

It truly didn’t hit me that my friend was gone forever until I walked into the building for the service. He was only nineteen years old, we were the class of 2016 together, and he was on his way to college. How am I supposed to react when someone texts me out of the blue and says “Hey, did you hear he died”? Of course I didn’t hear he died, because he couldn’t have! He is only nineteen! We go to church together!

How am I supposed to react when multiple people are texting me and saying “His death was an accident, he’s gone”. Shock. Disbelief. You don’t know how to react. Is this real? A week passes by and nothing. You continue to go to classes, see friends, and watch movies. Then you attend the service.

Yesterday, August 28th 2016, I attended my first funeral. Yesterday, everything became clear. Yesterday, I realized he was gone.

I believe it’s okay to grieve for the ones you’ve lost. It’s also okay to celebrate the time you had with them. You’ll wish you had more time with them, that you hugged them a little longer then you had, and you’ll wish they were sitting next to you right now. And that’s okay.

These two extremely different events made me realize that life is way to short. Always make sure you know you’re loved and the ones around you are loved. You never know how long you have on Earth, so you need to make your seconds, minutes, hours, days, months, and years count.

Don’t worry about the past and don’t worry about the future. Worry about the NOW.

Congratulations to the beautiful wedded husband and wife.

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Congratulations to God for getting a beautiful young man who has entered heaven. You’ll be missed.

 

 

New Year, New Realization

I’m about one week into the new year, and I’ve realized something that I think all girls should realize.

  • Each time we are interested in a guy, and we get up the courage to talk to that guy, we pretty much become invested in that one guy.

 

Well, being a girl who hasn’t been in a long relationship since three years ago, it was a little unusual for me to work up the courage to talk to a guy and show that I was interested in him. So when I actually worked up the courage to talk to this guy (lets give him the name “Lance”), and when we started talking, I was pretty excited (and a little shocked).

We talked for about two weeks until we had an “epic, spontaneous adventure” to Walmart for Black Friday. It was fun! One thing I forgot about myself whenever I’m starting to like someone is that I become super awkward and blush 24/7, but he didn’t seem to mind! A few days later, he asked me to go on a dinner date with him! So, reading this, you’d think things were going pretty smooth! So did I! We saw each other maybe once a week until about three weeks ago when he completely stopped asking me “what are you doing today? When are we going to hang”… There were no more “Hey! What time do you work til? 4 pm? Okay, I’m coming”…

About two weeks of no seeing each other went by, and I was getting annoyed, but I knew that we both went to different school and he was probably just busy!

Finally, we talked about everything.

“Courtney, you’re beautiful and so sweet and I’m interested in you, I just don’t know what I want right now”. WAIT? So i’ve wasted around TWO months talking to you, and you don’t know if you want a relationship….

What confused me more was that after Lance and I had our heart to heart, he began calling me beautiful all the time, texting me even more frequently, etc. I gave him one more week to see if things would change. They didn’t, and all the sudden (yesterday) he stopped talking to me completely, and I was just done with it. By this point, I already knew it was over, and honestly I felt worse leading up to talking to him about it then it actually happening and me telling him what’s up.

 

Last night (this is when we talked about it), I straight up said “Lance.. We’ve been talking for about two months, I like you. We are “talking”, right”? All I wanted to hear was “yes, we’re talking. I’m not ready for a relationship, but yeah we are talking because I like you and I think that this could lead into a relationship if we continue to talk”.

He straight up told me that he really likes me, but he isn’t sure if he wants a relationship, but he also doesn’t want to lead me on, and he told me I can continue to talk to him, but I can talk to other people too, but he wouldn’t say that continuing to talk to him would lead into a relationship with him, so ever since that conversation, I have stopped talking to him.

I don’t technically feel happy about this, because I did like him and I wanted to get to know him better and see where it could go. But, I do feel happy with the fact that I believe that I learned a valuable lesson through all this.

I finally feel ready to date again. For the longest time after my breakup of a year, I’ve felt like no one would like me. Since I have put myself out there. and it sort of worked for awhile, I feel safe to say I am ready to start showing interest in guys when I feel the need!

I’ve learned that I want someone who knows what they want and I want someone who is straight forward with me from the beginning.

I am definitely seeing this as a learning experience and I know all things happen for a reason.

I don’t see this as an end to something but just a step in the right direction!!

Also, Thank you “Lance” for showing me what I’m looking more in a guy! You honestly could’ve been a great boyfriend, but that’s okay! Maybe you’ll realize that with the next girl that comes in your life! This clearly just means you weren’t the right guy for me, and that’s okay!

 

XOXO, Courtney Leigh

 

 

 

Senior-itis

 

It all begins when you begin to walk. Your parents begin to question “what’s their next step”? They soon send us off to daycare, and before you know it, you’re in pre-school, next to kindergarten, and in a blink of an eye, you’re leaving to go to High school. Four years. Four years to make a name for yourself in your town.

Freshman year: You’re told that every year counts, make good grades, do all your homework. You listen, but you’re not listening because you’re looking at your surroundings, terrified of all the new faces staring back at you. “What did the teacher say? Do these girls like me? Do I fit in? Do the guys notice me”? You seem to be very shy, very quiet. Very intimidated by the pretty girls… That is Freshman Year

Sophomore year: You’re beginning to find the people you like to hangout with. You attend all the school sport games to support the cute guy players and your new friends who play. You think about joining some sports. You don’t try out for any. You make working out a priority, which is an amazing journey for you. You’re still very quiet, but you begin to break out of your shell. You branch out more, meet more people, discover who you like and dislike. You’re proud of yourself. You stop eating all the junk food. You go to sleepovers. You’re happier…. That is Sophomore Year.

Junior Year: You are happy. You smile so much more. You workout almost everyday, eat better (besides chocolate). You have found your friends, and are still making friends along the way! You love watching shows on Netflix. You begin to hear teachers talk about tests you have to take. You take the ACTs and SATs. You go on vacation with your closest friends for Spring Break. You spend all your weekends with your best friend since 2 years old…. That is your Junior year.

Senior Year: You made it. You’ve also flourished into a social butterfly. Everyone thinks your super sweet and funny and great. You’re happy. You’re so freaked out about applying to colleges. You visit UNCC and love the campus, but hate your moms warning about being away from home. She wants you to stay close to home. You are scared to leave highschool. You are scared of failure to be accepted into college. You are scared. You got your first real job as a cashier. You are making friends everywhere. You get super freaked out about if you and your bestfriend will go to the same school. You don’t want to lose her. You are only less then 9 weeks into your senior year…. This is your Senior year so far.

 

Life goes by quick. Live to the fullest. I’m scared of my future ahead, but I’m excited. I know everything is meant to be, and I will find my way. This was actually more about my experience in highschool, and what is going on right now. Thank you for reading ❤

XoXO, Courtney Leigh

In Need of Tips on Losing Weight

Beginning my last year of highschool, I have gained 10 pounds and I can’t seem to lose it! I’d lose 5, then gain back 5… Gain 1 then lose 4! Leave any tips you can! I also think I’m gonna try to blog about my fitness and health journey once I can get into it! Thanks.. I’m going to Disney at the end of this month and id love to have shed off some of these pounds before going 😦  

 

Spirit Week OOTD 

Okay guys, spirit week just ended so I think it’s time to post all the days outfits!❤️❤️❤️ 

America Day

   

  

Twin Tuesday

   

Watauga Wednesday

   

  

 
Throwback Thursday 

    

  


Toga Day (For seniors)

      

And tonight we have our Homecoming Dance! I’m really excited and I’ll be posting pictures of that tomorrow!! Love you guys!

XOXO, Courtney Leigh